So this is a rant.
Please let me repeat...THIS IS A RANT. A rant against every boy/man/creep that has ever done me wrong or at least said something stupid. Ladies I hope you find empowerment by this and fellas I hope you learn from these big dummies mistakes and not to do the same to a sad love sick puppy like my self.
Now I will not mention names for I am too classy for that but the details I reveal will of course allow the guilty party know that they are them. (If of course they ever bother to read this...but I won't hold my breath.)
Ok apparently I have dated a lot of SPIRITUAL GODLY GOD GIVEN MEN. Becuase I have heard every excuse that God possibly could be blamed for.
DON'T BLAME GOD FOR THINGS THAT HE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH!
"Georgia...I'm just not spiritually ready for this relationship."
- Oh really because you must have been spiritually set when you thought we could just make out at that Drive In the night before I left, or when you talked about the names of our children. Wow...how a FRIGGIN' WEEK can change things. If your going to say you're not "SPIRITUALLY READY" maybe you should think about that before you try to make out with me every chance you got ok? Thanks. Hope all is well in Texas. Hope you have some beautiful blonde BARBIE that you're being SPIRITUAL with.
"Georgia you have a big heart for people. You make me want to be a better person."
(3 months later) "Georgia you are selfish, prideful and not spiritually edifying"
- Dear preacher man, this statement has CONTROLLED my life for the past year and a half. I believed that crap you told me for the longest. I wanted to commit suicide and I started counseling. The counseling helped but the damage was deep because you knew every inch of me...literally. (NO READERS WE DID NOT HAVE SEX...because I wouldn't let it) Oh preacher man you wanna disagree...well how about those nights that I was crying to you saying I didn't want to make out anymore because I was afraid it would go to far but no you pushed and pushed the boundaries. Now don't get me wrong I've forgiven you and put a nail in that coffin but for the sake of this beautiful blog your example was necessary. Oh and just because you delete me from Facebook and pretend I don't exist doesn't mean I'm not here. I wanna thank you for those words that almost destroyed me because they made me come back stronger and better than ever. The Lord used what you meant for evil and made something beautiful from it.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Friday, September 24, 2010
Healing, Hope or Hurt?
So recently I have encountered several people who have expressed to me that they have been wounded by the church. To hear this kind of sounds like an oxymoron. The church is a place where a person should find healing, hope, help...not hurt?
I have recently been burdened with the thoughts of why is this a common consensus among teenagers and young adults. Is it because they were raised in a much to strict "Christian" home and so now is their time to rebel? Is it because at church these "Christians" judged them and isolated them and so there was never a connection or comfort found there? Maybe they have always been unbelievers and instead of being inviting and loving them past that they were hateful and excluded them? I do not know what the answer is for everyone but I am just so sick of this. I am sick of the excuses. I am sick of these "Christians". I am just sick of it all! I am sick of being at church and instead of worshipping I see teens who were forced to be at church and instead of enjoying the opportunity to stand in awe of their creator and praise Him, they would rather text some boy who will not be around in a few years or think about what is for dinner or what am I going to do when service is over. What is this people? Please understand I am guilty of all of these things. That is why I am enraged. I am mad at myself for cheapening something so precious. Being a member of the body of Christ has called us to something much greater than Facebook updates or Taco Bell after service. We are the "chosen generation". Think about that. The CHOSEN GENERATION! The Creator of all things...every freckle on your face, every fish in the sea, every star in the sky...He chose us to live in this time period for a reason!!! I remember talking to my mom and grandma and thinking that, "Man, I wish life was that easy now." But that's it...they were chosen to live then and I've been chosen to live now. When being a Christian is NOT easy, when the church is constantly being ridiculed, when families have been ripped apart by so many elements of this secular. I (and you) have been chosen to live in this time for a reason! That reason? To be a light for Christ in this cold and dark world. Depression is high, economy is low...who will show love in this era? YOU!!! It is such a HUGE calling but God has blessed us with this opportunity to do something with it! Be different! Be the change.
I am sick of kids who have been brought up in the church their whole lives and when they enter high school they are still wanting to be fed by the church. They are still consumers instead of giving back. (Again, let me remind you...I AM TOTALLY GUILTY OF THIS.) We have been given the tools as kids and in high school, college, you first job work place is the best mission field we could ask for at this time. So we cannot just go with the flow. We cannot just fly under the radar. We are called to be different! To be bigger and better than the norm!
Ultimately, I am ready for the bride of Christ to fall back in love. I want there to be a revolution of teenagers, young adults, old adults to fall DEEPLY, MADLY in love with Jesus. I have been to so many different worship services in so many different churches and I see everyone go through the motions. They read the words on the screen but they do not let it effect their heart. They just sing them then sit. Well lets put you at your favorite concert or favorite sports team game. I bet you are jumping, dancing, raising your hands, yelling, anything to show that you are such a fan! I have seen so many teenagers (that I know dance) stand half asleep during worship songs at church. And do not think I am saying we need to have a rave in the middle of church but I am saying that if your heart is not in it. Do not sing the words. In songs like Indescribable the lyric, "You know the depths of my heart but You love me the same," and in How He Loves Us, the words in these worship songs and hymnals are way to powerful to sing without complete and utter conviction! This is to important guys! And trust me I know and relate with those of you who say "we sing them all the time". I mean I sing the Doxology every single day of my life but recently I got to see a group of people who never sing it, lift that praise up to God and it kicked me in the face! I am so glad it did too!
I just think that people would stop being "hurt" by the church if we, THE CHURCH, would fall back in love with our Kinsman Redeemer. We worship, serve, live for a God who loved us so much, how can we not pass it on. WAKE UP CHURCH! People out there are living life without knowing, feeling, understanding the love of God and we have been called to show them! Yea, we really have! Because to whom much is given much is required! WAKE UP! This is tooo important to just let it pass by. We have a Savior who loves us past all our crap that we try to hide from the world. You know the dark and dirty stuff you do not want anyone to see, ESPECIALLY God. (Well tough luck, HE ALREADY KNOWS and HE loves us anyways) Is that not crazy to think of how our Lord, who is perfect, sinless, holy, sovereign, righteous loves us so much He sent His only Son to DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH, A PAINFUL, A BLOODY, A HUMILIATING DEATH for us even though He hates sin and He knew we would do it anyways. He knew that there would be days that we would stray and not love Him. HE DID IT ANYWAYS! CHURCH WAKE UP! GEORGIA WAKE UP!!!! Let go of those guards, shields, walls, masks that you are hiding behind because the truth is we are ALL filthy rags without the GRACE AND MERCY OF GOD! We deserve HELL BUT HE GAVE US HEAVEN!!!! Let's live it out guys! Let's praise Him! Let's be the bride He is waiting to receive! Ah...HIS WOUNDS HAVE PAID OUR RANSOM! Let's go tell some people that! Let's be fanatic about God! Let's love Him and give Him the time we give FACEBOOK, TV, MOVIES, SPORTS, TEXTING! Let's give it all to Him! Give Him your HURT, SHAME, GUILT, DIRTY DEEP SIN! Let Him take it away. Because we do not have time to maintain this regret when we think about HOW HE LOVES US! Stop condemning, Start loving. Because that person you cannot stand, that you think is so far gone. GOD LOVES THEM JUST AS MUCH AS HE LOVES YOU!!! You are no better (and no worse). So stop comparing yourself to others and start comparing yourself to God!!!! That's the only thing we can compare ourselves to. He made no junk! He made you, so stop thinking your junk, stop thinking someone else is junk! Because we all come from the same mold. We are all made out of His image. So let's start reflecting it adequately. I know we can do it!
This rant has gone on too long, but I had an awakening last night. I knew all my flaws. More than anything I want them gone out of my life and I hope maybe my flaws can encourage you guys to let go of yours! God is good. God is love. Love one another as He has loved us!
I have recently been burdened with the thoughts of why is this a common consensus among teenagers and young adults. Is it because they were raised in a much to strict "Christian" home and so now is their time to rebel? Is it because at church these "Christians" judged them and isolated them and so there was never a connection or comfort found there? Maybe they have always been unbelievers and instead of being inviting and loving them past that they were hateful and excluded them? I do not know what the answer is for everyone but I am just so sick of this. I am sick of the excuses. I am sick of these "Christians". I am just sick of it all! I am sick of being at church and instead of worshipping I see teens who were forced to be at church and instead of enjoying the opportunity to stand in awe of their creator and praise Him, they would rather text some boy who will not be around in a few years or think about what is for dinner or what am I going to do when service is over. What is this people? Please understand I am guilty of all of these things. That is why I am enraged. I am mad at myself for cheapening something so precious. Being a member of the body of Christ has called us to something much greater than Facebook updates or Taco Bell after service. We are the "chosen generation". Think about that. The CHOSEN GENERATION! The Creator of all things...every freckle on your face, every fish in the sea, every star in the sky...He chose us to live in this time period for a reason!!! I remember talking to my mom and grandma and thinking that, "Man, I wish life was that easy now." But that's it...they were chosen to live then and I've been chosen to live now. When being a Christian is NOT easy, when the church is constantly being ridiculed, when families have been ripped apart by so many elements of this secular. I (and you) have been chosen to live in this time for a reason! That reason? To be a light for Christ in this cold and dark world. Depression is high, economy is low...who will show love in this era? YOU!!! It is such a HUGE calling but God has blessed us with this opportunity to do something with it! Be different! Be the change.
I am sick of kids who have been brought up in the church their whole lives and when they enter high school they are still wanting to be fed by the church. They are still consumers instead of giving back. (Again, let me remind you...I AM TOTALLY GUILTY OF THIS.) We have been given the tools as kids and in high school, college, you first job work place is the best mission field we could ask for at this time. So we cannot just go with the flow. We cannot just fly under the radar. We are called to be different! To be bigger and better than the norm!
Ultimately, I am ready for the bride of Christ to fall back in love. I want there to be a revolution of teenagers, young adults, old adults to fall DEEPLY, MADLY in love with Jesus. I have been to so many different worship services in so many different churches and I see everyone go through the motions. They read the words on the screen but they do not let it effect their heart. They just sing them then sit. Well lets put you at your favorite concert or favorite sports team game. I bet you are jumping, dancing, raising your hands, yelling, anything to show that you are such a fan! I have seen so many teenagers (that I know dance) stand half asleep during worship songs at church. And do not think I am saying we need to have a rave in the middle of church but I am saying that if your heart is not in it. Do not sing the words. In songs like Indescribable the lyric, "You know the depths of my heart but You love me the same," and in How He Loves Us, the words in these worship songs and hymnals are way to powerful to sing without complete and utter conviction! This is to important guys! And trust me I know and relate with those of you who say "we sing them all the time". I mean I sing the Doxology every single day of my life but recently I got to see a group of people who never sing it, lift that praise up to God and it kicked me in the face! I am so glad it did too!
I just think that people would stop being "hurt" by the church if we, THE CHURCH, would fall back in love with our Kinsman Redeemer. We worship, serve, live for a God who loved us so much, how can we not pass it on. WAKE UP CHURCH! People out there are living life without knowing, feeling, understanding the love of God and we have been called to show them! Yea, we really have! Because to whom much is given much is required! WAKE UP! This is tooo important to just let it pass by. We have a Savior who loves us past all our crap that we try to hide from the world. You know the dark and dirty stuff you do not want anyone to see, ESPECIALLY God. (Well tough luck, HE ALREADY KNOWS and HE loves us anyways) Is that not crazy to think of how our Lord, who is perfect, sinless, holy, sovereign, righteous loves us so much He sent His only Son to DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH, A PAINFUL, A BLOODY, A HUMILIATING DEATH for us even though He hates sin and He knew we would do it anyways. He knew that there would be days that we would stray and not love Him. HE DID IT ANYWAYS! CHURCH WAKE UP! GEORGIA WAKE UP!!!! Let go of those guards, shields, walls, masks that you are hiding behind because the truth is we are ALL filthy rags without the GRACE AND MERCY OF GOD! We deserve HELL BUT HE GAVE US HEAVEN!!!! Let's live it out guys! Let's praise Him! Let's be the bride He is waiting to receive! Ah...HIS WOUNDS HAVE PAID OUR RANSOM! Let's go tell some people that! Let's be fanatic about God! Let's love Him and give Him the time we give FACEBOOK, TV, MOVIES, SPORTS, TEXTING! Let's give it all to Him! Give Him your HURT, SHAME, GUILT, DIRTY DEEP SIN! Let Him take it away. Because we do not have time to maintain this regret when we think about HOW HE LOVES US! Stop condemning, Start loving. Because that person you cannot stand, that you think is so far gone. GOD LOVES THEM JUST AS MUCH AS HE LOVES YOU!!! You are no better (and no worse). So stop comparing yourself to others and start comparing yourself to God!!!! That's the only thing we can compare ourselves to. He made no junk! He made you, so stop thinking your junk, stop thinking someone else is junk! Because we all come from the same mold. We are all made out of His image. So let's start reflecting it adequately. I know we can do it!
This rant has gone on too long, but I had an awakening last night. I knew all my flaws. More than anything I want them gone out of my life and I hope maybe my flaws can encourage you guys to let go of yours! God is good. God is love. Love one another as He has loved us!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
When in Doubt...Have Faith.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die;a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal;a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh;a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose;a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew;a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate;a time for war, and a time for peace.
When my heart hurts I must know that God is looking out for me. He knew it was coming and He was ready to catch me when I fall.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
He loves me, He loves you, so much! He wants your wildest dreams to come true. He is writing your fairy tale because He is your prince. Don't question He's timing or means on getting there. Because they will blow your expectations out of the water.
Pslam 37:4
Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
That is truly what He wants to give you. However, He will also transform your desires to be His desires for you. (Trust me they are way better than your own.)
I hope someone may find comfort in this. I know I did.
Your girl on a mission to find/be something amazing,
Georgia
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
a time to be born, and a time to die;a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal;a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh;a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together;a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose;a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew;a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate;a time for war, and a time for peace.
When my heart hurts I must know that God is looking out for me. He knew it was coming and He was ready to catch me when I fall.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
He loves me, He loves you, so much! He wants your wildest dreams to come true. He is writing your fairy tale because He is your prince. Don't question He's timing or means on getting there. Because they will blow your expectations out of the water.
Pslam 37:4
Delight yourself in the LORD,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
That is truly what He wants to give you. However, He will also transform your desires to be His desires for you. (Trust me they are way better than your own.)
I hope someone may find comfort in this. I know I did.
Your girl on a mission to find/be something amazing,
Georgia
Friday, January 1, 2010
The Most Adult Thing I've Ever Done
So we begin 2010 and I've made a couple of promises to myself. I'm finished allowing other people regulating how I feel about my self. I know that I'm not perfect and I have A LOT of flaws but I'm done letting people making me feel less than what I am. I'm trying so hard to change from the selfish and prideful self and I'm seeing (and others) are seeing progress in my growth. So I can't let people keep bringing up who I was and where I've failed. I'm not that person any longer, nor do I ever want to return to that girl. I am a young lady with big dreams. I have seen my failures, short comings, and mistakes. If my Savior can forgive me, I must forgive myself and not allow a person[s] make me feel like all my hard work is a waste. Because I am getting better. I am nor will I ever be who I was! I guarantee you this.
Happy New Year!
Happy New Self (Finally)!
Happy New Year!
Happy New Self (Finally)!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
The Who
So this past summer I did a little self-evaluation. Through this I found who I am, who I want to be, and who I want to be with one day.
This is who I am. I am a woman who is earnestly seeking the heart of God. I truly want to be a girl that for a guy to seek my heart, he must first seek Christ's. I know I have flaws, but I want to constantly improve on my imperfections. I want someone that loves me for who I am yet encourages me to be the best woman I can be. I want my heart to be the center of my beauty. I want to be a vessel that is broken so that Christ can be seen through me. I want to be an encourager to all of those around me.
To go with what I want to do and be I also want this for myself. I want a strong spiritual leader. I was a man, who believes that I am his and while I am submissive to him I am still an intellect equal. I want someone who challenges my thinking. I want to talk about weighty matters, philosophy, theology, emotions and why they are so. I want to be the only person that the person notices when I enter the room. I want them to find me beautiful and desire to seek my heart everyday. I want to be treated like a princess, at the same time I want to grow into a lady deserving of being treated so.
I want my relationship to completely be focused on the happiness on my partners happiness, in turn I want them to be completely focused on mine as well. With this I don't see how either of us could be unhappy. I believe in 1 Corinthians 13 when it says that "love is not self seeking." I believe that love is a team effort. Each party must be willing to put equal amounts of effort into the relationship. Before I have taken this for granted. Love is selfless, a person must be completely willing to put the other before their self. This is love, a sacrificial love.
I want a man who is a leader. Whether is be of a congregation, class room, youth group...Just a man that is willing to lead and serve. As I have a passion to lead and serve I think that the man I am to be with might have the same passion. This leader must be a compassionate one, a heart that is more than willing to love others. This is an important aspect in a good leader and man. I guess a Christ like leader. I want me and whoever I am with to strive together to build each other up in being better Christians. I want to be my partners accountability partner with their devotions and everything they he may struggle with. I want to be his encourager in every way possible. Whether it be as a ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, or just a heart to love. This is what I want to be for them. However, I do want the same for me as well. All in all I assume I want a strong Christ like heart in a man.
This may sound like a advertisement for myself. It's not. I've come to grips that God may have called me to not just limit all my love to one man and just expand it to children all over the world. Which both are wonderful journeys that I'm more than excited to take. I just believe that love is something God has given me to share and I want to do so to the fullest.
I guess I write this because lately most guys I have met that are interested in me don't truly understand what they are getting in to. There's so much for a person, even as a loyal friend, need to know about me. Even the one's that assume that they know me the best don't completely know me. I'm saving that for the one I can completely trust. Whether or not they even come through my lifetime. However, it's saved away. These are just some of the basics of what I believe I deserve and also what my partner deserves.
I feel like there's more that I could expound upon, however I would have to assume you would care to know. If you do ask. If you don't I understand. Thanks for reading my thoughts either way.
This is who I am. I am a woman who is earnestly seeking the heart of God. I truly want to be a girl that for a guy to seek my heart, he must first seek Christ's. I know I have flaws, but I want to constantly improve on my imperfections. I want someone that loves me for who I am yet encourages me to be the best woman I can be. I want my heart to be the center of my beauty. I want to be a vessel that is broken so that Christ can be seen through me. I want to be an encourager to all of those around me.
To go with what I want to do and be I also want this for myself. I want a strong spiritual leader. I was a man, who believes that I am his and while I am submissive to him I am still an intellect equal. I want someone who challenges my thinking. I want to talk about weighty matters, philosophy, theology, emotions and why they are so. I want to be the only person that the person notices when I enter the room. I want them to find me beautiful and desire to seek my heart everyday. I want to be treated like a princess, at the same time I want to grow into a lady deserving of being treated so.
I want my relationship to completely be focused on the happiness on my partners happiness, in turn I want them to be completely focused on mine as well. With this I don't see how either of us could be unhappy. I believe in 1 Corinthians 13 when it says that "love is not self seeking." I believe that love is a team effort. Each party must be willing to put equal amounts of effort into the relationship. Before I have taken this for granted. Love is selfless, a person must be completely willing to put the other before their self. This is love, a sacrificial love.
I want a man who is a leader. Whether is be of a congregation, class room, youth group...Just a man that is willing to lead and serve. As I have a passion to lead and serve I think that the man I am to be with might have the same passion. This leader must be a compassionate one, a heart that is more than willing to love others. This is an important aspect in a good leader and man. I guess a Christ like leader. I want me and whoever I am with to strive together to build each other up in being better Christians. I want to be my partners accountability partner with their devotions and everything they he may struggle with. I want to be his encourager in every way possible. Whether it be as a ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, or just a heart to love. This is what I want to be for them. However, I do want the same for me as well. All in all I assume I want a strong Christ like heart in a man.
This may sound like a advertisement for myself. It's not. I've come to grips that God may have called me to not just limit all my love to one man and just expand it to children all over the world. Which both are wonderful journeys that I'm more than excited to take. I just believe that love is something God has given me to share and I want to do so to the fullest.
I guess I write this because lately most guys I have met that are interested in me don't truly understand what they are getting in to. There's so much for a person, even as a loyal friend, need to know about me. Even the one's that assume that they know me the best don't completely know me. I'm saving that for the one I can completely trust. Whether or not they even come through my lifetime. However, it's saved away. These are just some of the basics of what I believe I deserve and also what my partner deserves.
I feel like there's more that I could expound upon, however I would have to assume you would care to know. If you do ask. If you don't I understand. Thanks for reading my thoughts either way.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
My Fairytale
Princess CuppyCake and the Beautiful Jeweled Gown
Once upon a time there lived a princess named Princess CuppyCake. This princess grew up in a very small village. Nothing spectacular ever happened in this place, just everyone’s day-to-day norm. One day CuppyCake was tired of the doldrums and decided that she would finally wear the gown that she had been working on for years. This gown was truly extraordinary. It had ever color jewel found in the rainbow. As Princess CuppyCake entered the town people stopped and awed as they saw the gown glitter on by.
No one ever really knew much about Princess CuppyCake. They just liked to stare at her gown. CuppyCake had lots of “friends” because everyone wanted to be close to the gown. One day a boy finally spoke to Princess CuppyCake, she had never had a boy actually talk to her; well actually, no one ever really talked to her besides to comment on her dress. This boy actually talked to her though, he never even mentioned her dress. She didn’t really know how to take all of this in. She truly enjoyed laughing, conversing, and knowing someone actually cared about her, not her dress. She had never experienced this kind of happiness before. Time went by and they became best friends. Princess CuppyCake knew more about this boy than she even knew about herself. Until one day when the boy started to take the princess’s jewels. One by one he took them and then after he had enough he left.
Sadly though, where he took the jewels you could see that CuppyCake’s beautiful gown wasn’t a gown at all. Princess CuppyCake had just sown on these lovely jewels over just some rags. See Princess CuppyCake wasn’t a princess at all. Princess CuppyCake was nothing more than a peasant girl. She had collected the jewels as they fell off other things and as time went by she started sowing them onto her dress made out of filthy sack cloth so that maybe she could make everyone else believe she was more than a peasant girl. Her trick had gone on for years without a hitch, except now the rags were starting to show through.
At first the missing jewels weren’t too noticeable. She still had plenty of other jewel to cover the spots that where bare. It did make Princess CuppyCake feel like she was now missing something. Not only did she loose some of her favorite jewels, she had lost the person that she thought knew her best. Now others started to see the holes bit by bit, and in their minds they wanted to have some jewels to themselves. So certain people would try to take CuppyCake’s jewels one by one. CuppyCake began to feel very scared that everyone would start to see her rags so she started to paste on fake jewels to fill in the holes. She knew she could no longer stay in the small village, so late one night she fled for the kingdom far, far away.
When she arrived Princess CuppyCake didn’t stand out like she use to but no one knew about her rags here. So as people started to notice her and her jewels a prince came along. He was tall, dark, handsome and charming. The prince saw her for her beauty and then began to love her for her heart. CuppyCake loved the prince’s company very much but she would also remember back to the boy from the village that she had trusted before and then he betrayed her. So as much as she enjoyed the prince she wasn’t able to let down her defensive barricades around her, her dress, and her heart.
Time went one and the prince consistently pursued the princess and showed her what true love should be. However, she was still scarred. She started to let him get close to her but kept her distance so that he couldn’t see the rags underneath. Then one day she ran away. No one knew where she went. Princess CuppyCake had ran into streets of the kingdom with a heavy jacket over her gown so that no one would look at her, but the one person could see the jewels from under the coat and stopped her. This stranger had a quick wit and charm, which made the nervous princess be put as ease, but right as she started to sit with the stranger he grabbed a handful of jewels and fleeted to give them to his love.
The princess was heart broken once again because one, she didn’t have anymore fake jewels to fill in the holes and her rags were gleaming through. She came back to the prince and he didn’t think he could trust her since she had just vanished without explanation. He also started to see her rags through her dress and figured she was trying to hide something. He never felt the same way about her again.
Shortly after this, he started taking her jewels. At first it was one by one, then hand full’s by hand full’s. He knew she was hiding something and wanted to find out what it was. One day when the princess decided that she loved the prince and wanted to spend every last moment with him, the princess took off every last jewel that CuppyCake had left. Then there she laid a peasant girl through and through. There she lay with everything she thought was special about her gone. Then the prince saw her exactly for what she was, a pile of filthy rags. He asked himself, “How could I ever love a fake princess, a pile of rags?” And that’s how he left her, broken on the floor. Her heart was still attached to the prince and her dress that was no more. She no longer had something that she was able to hide behind. She felt as if she had nothing that made her special. Princess CuppyCake finally came to terms with the peasant she truly was and now everyone could see that. The secret she tried so hard to hide for years finally became common knowledge to everyone in the village and in the kingdom: She was a fake.
As Princess CuppyCake tried to pick up the pieces of what she knew she had left, she decided to try to make the rags that she had as beautiful as she could. She patched the hole and cleaned the spots, but every time she tried to reach out to others all the people could see was that she was a peasant who had lied about who she was. The wonderful princess that they once thought they knew was no more, she was a lie. She tried so hard to still be that wonderful person that everyone thought she was, but no one would give her a chance. Especially the prince, he couldn’t even bear to look at her. He had already found another princess, a real princess, that was more beautiful, had more wit and was much more intelligent than Princess CuppyCake could ever try to be. All of the other people in the kingdom agreed that this new princess was much better than CuppyCake.
Sad, beaten down and broken CuppyCake left the village and the kingdom. She set out on a journey that she had tried to start so many times before. CuppyCake was on a search to find someone who could love her, rags and all, but even more CuppyCake was trying to learn to love herself without the beautiful jewel gown.
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